7. The Lord's Prayer

There is no God in my life. I learned to disconnect all physical pain, for is mother struck me it would be as if she was taking it out on a rag doll. My emotions were from fear and intense anger. For as if I cried at which I would not it would give mother the satisfaction of defeat. My soul I became to hate just about everything. I still was starved. Most of all mother was the reason of all hate and misfortune the reason to all hate and dread as I wish she were dead. Before she is dead I want her to I feel my magnitude of pain and loneliness. I would pray to god, for him to answer my prayers; at which he has only answered one. Mother began to turn me against my father. Which made me feel as if I were a trader? I began to hate my father and my brothers all of them but, my baby brother Kevin who made me feel warm. I had some lifting experiences, but mother ruined them and put me back down. I began to give up I became rebellious. I knew there was no escape so all I could do was pray. So that’s what I did…