3. Bad Boy

My relationship with mother dramatically changed. My discipline turned into harsh punishment. I grew very afraid of my mother and her dramatic change. When father was away mother would just lye on the couch, there was no more trips and sceneries to learn about. Mother’s punishments were harsh really harsh. She has convinced me to believe that I am a “bad boy” from her mirror treatment. My brothers would walk past the place at which there was a mirror. There I was standing there staring into my own eyes and watching my surroundings. I would ask myself my why my brothers had done this. My brothers were only trying to save themselves that is why they wouldn’t have any acknowledgement in me. Mother was a cub den mother for awhile and she treated those boys as king’s, that didn’t last long mother, gave up her den mother position to another mother. Obviously she wouldn’t let me attend she had something else planned. While brothers were at there cub meeting mother had plans for me. She brought to my attention that she had read about a mother who burned her son on the stove. From this I knew mother had one of her plans. She has thought of another way to ruin my life. Mother attempted to burn me alive. I have realized how to live with her theories of punishment. I have learned to live. I have learned that I can survive this. And I will.